Well my friends it's been a while. A lot has changed in the last few months. I don't really wanna talk about the last 3 months. It's been an up and down kinda bumpy road. I somewhat feel like my life is at a crossroads. In some ways I look forward to the new challenges, but there is some fear. Normally I'm very open,but right now I'm feeling a little vulnerable. In the past I'd combat this fear with a silly joke or turn my attention to some other target, but now I feel helpless. I want to do so much, but not sure how. Years ago I'd burst through my problems like a battering ram, but these days I feel more like the Titanic running into an iceberg. Recently financial difficulty is made it a little tough for me to enjoy life. In some ways have no one to blame but myself. Life is always easier when you blame others,but the reality is at some point we all have to take responsibility for all of our actions. I think at times my biggest problem is not my lack of